unappreciated

Am I not good enough? I just really feel unappreciated. I feel like everything that I do is not good enough and it's like everytime I won't do the things you tell me to do, you just bitch at me and get mad. I'm not your pet. I try to do things to make you happy. Isn't that good enough? I try to visit you as much as I could but you don't see the effort I put to see you. It's like I'm building a house for no one. A house that will never become a home. A place that'll never be happy. This relationship is going nowhere because of you. You trip over small things. You always want to get what you want. You don't own me. I won't do everything that you tell me to do. I don't deserve this kind of treatment. I've defended you against my friends. Sometimes I just really dont know what to do no more. I think you need someone who's always gonna do everything you want and a guy that could be your bitch. You think the world rotates around you. 1 time that I said no to something you want me to do, you get mad? What kind of shit is that? Why can you not understand that I am really lazy and I was tired at the same time. It's not like I didn't wanna see you, I was tired.

I have to do what's best for me but the problem is, I don't know what's best for me. Maybe I don't want the best for me. I want wha'ts best for both of US. I don't wanna hurt you and I dont wanna hurt myself either. I'm sure that when I make a decision, I won't regret it.