Sick

So like I'm bored as fuck right now and I'm getting sick. I think I'm catching a cold right now. I hate being sick physically and emotionally. I'm sick and tired of arguing all the time. I just don't know sometimes why am I still in this. I went out with you for a reason. I found happiness and I enjoy being with you. I know that I don't deserve this kind of treatment and same goes to you. I like being dominant and always being right but is being dominant and being right the best thing to happen? I feel like I've always stepped on you. You gave up your pride and dignity just to be with me. I appreciate the effort you put in this relationship. Sometimes I feel like this relationship is going nowhere. We're both fucking up too much. I have faith in this relationship. I feel that I'm not good enough for you. You know that you deserve better. Both of us deserves the best but is the best the best thing for both of us? I get heated and jealous too fast and I dont know why. I think it's just that I care too much. I care too much to the extent that I start to become selfish. I hate it when I'm like that. I'm self centered and stubborn. We all control the outcome/result of everything we do. We should know the consequences and be prepared for it. I've been hurt too many times that sometimes it just doesn't hurt me no more. I'm getting stronger and stronger in both good and bad ways. I get stronger to overcome things faster but I seem to care less at the same time. Not a good thing but it is what it is. I did some fucked up things and you did too. I think we really need to start to understand each other cuz this relationship is just getting worse and it's going nowhere. We need to get back in track and make this happen. We're in this together. It takes 2 make this relationship work.

Im fucking 17 now bros. I love my gf.

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