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Lately

2010-11-07T22:32:00.000-08:00

Lately I've been feeling a little sad because I kinda miss having a girlfriend. Anyways, finally got my da9. Can't wait to start buying parts.

pics off of James' iphone/facebook

8-5-2010

2010-08-06T21:50:00.000-07:00

My 2nd car and first stick shift car..It happened a month ago but never had the time to blog about it. Spun out at 10am on highway 80. So sad could have been fixing it up now but oh well shit happens.

Anyways, yesterday me, babe, jose, gonzalo and ramsey went to twin peaks and bjs. it was babe's first time at twin peaks. What a surprise she's been living in the bay area since birth but never went to twin peaks. Here are the pics.

Credit: Jose Santos. More at http://www.flickr.com/photos/taimaishuuyo/

For sale

2010-06-03T01:37:00.000-07:00

sz 9.5 carmines
comes with og box but only half of the cdp box
worn twice
$200 firm

sz 9 grapes
og box no lacelocks
used
$150 firm

sz 9 2001 black cements
no og box comes with replacement box
used
$150 firm

metallic red I
og box
worn once
$110 firm

Its been awhile

2009-11-24T22:03:00.001-08:00

I havent blogged for months cuz I've been really busy with work and school. My past few months had been great. All I could say is that I really feel good right now and everything is going great. Im doing really good in school and my relationship is going great. I haven't met someone like my girlfriend right now. She's beautiful inside and out. First time I felt something like this. Someone who I could take seriously and really have fun with. Ive been spending most of my time with her and everytime we're together, its always fun. She makes me happy and now I could settle down with a girl. Oh man we still need a picture together.

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Mary's 18th.

2009-08-16T16:30:00.000-07:00

I haven't been blogging lately cuz im kina busy. Here's from yesterday.

YAH <9

2009-08-07T22:15:00.000-07:00

self explanatory. Sorry for my ugly face.

8609210<3

Jose's bday

2009-07-28T02:13:00.000-07:00

So for Josie's bday we went to 6 flags. It was kina unexpected cuz he just told me about it yesterday.Good thing I was off today and had money. Woke up at 8am and got ready then head to james' house to meet up. picked renjie up and shit. Then after 6 flags we went to sonics and wingstop. omfg that atomic wing made me tear. I couldnt take it. I made it even worse by drinking soda. Oh well. My first time to wingstop and sonics haha. Then we went to yen's house. fking vallejo weather is so fucking nice.Then when we dropped off renjie, we head back to jose's house and we drove around and ended up going to moss beach, sharp park, poplar beach and half moon bay. fking scary as fk. Now I have a $ 1.38 literally left from 140 within a week. It's worth it.

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2009-07-21T15:29:00.000-07:00

Lately I've been working alot and finally got a day off last sunday haha so I kicked it with Catherine and her friends at sf. Walked around and shit and watch them shop. Then we went to the pier . I've never been to the beach over there so I guess that's a good thing. I was kinda tired tho cuz I was running on 3 hours of sleep. Its all good tho its worth it. I was hella shy for some reason haha maybe cuz it felt akward but oh well.

bowling

2009-07-12T19:53:00.000-07:00

So all week, all i've been doing is bowling. I hit 161 this week and most of my scores are above 130-140 now. Im getting addicted to it haha and Ive been kickin it with my cousin the whole week too. Oh well I need to get back to working out im getting too fat already. Been meeting alot of people lately. The other night was crazy tho. This girl was hella trippin cuz I'm supposedly talking to "hella girls". I dont get girls sometimes.

just cuz were bored.

new pick up this week

6/25

2009-06-26T01:55:00.000-07:00

Been busy the whole week. Last week I went to richmond party with renjie and skye. Shit was hella crackin. Eminence was pretty coo too. Kicked it with angela last tuesday and today and finna watch transformers with her tomorrow finally get to see it haha. Bowled and ate out at in nout today with clinton angela and janelle kneiko and watched the proposal last tuesday. That movie is great. It's kina sad in a way. Well can't wait for tomorrow.

Ignore my ugly ass.

wdywt
Hundreds.LRG.APC.Space Jams.

summer

2009-06-15T09:55:00.000-07:00

Summer is going alright for me. Been getting faded every week for some reason. I still need to do some things to get my life straight. I need to get back to working out too but Ive been busy with work and some shit. But anyways here are pics from sat night and sunday morning

John's 19th

2009-06-07T23:35:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was John's 19th bday.I was sick as fk cuz of the day before that I didnt go home til 4am. Me and my friends went to stow late twin peaks and mels drive in.It was coo until the part that Gonzalo sped up too much.Here are pics..

Anyways, is it really bad to check up on someone you love and ask what's wrong like wtf dude you ask them whats wrong and they tell you to leave em alone and hang up on you and that makes you fking bad? When you care for someone then you'll look bad.Some bs and then when they talk to you and start talking shit and then you just had to fight back and say something even if its not true makes you look bad still. I didn't start anything. I did say some things that I didnt mean and you know that and then you're gonna tell your friends I said this and that when you dont even tell them what YOU said first before anything else. Now I look bad and now what you're gonna please what your friends want you to do when they dont even know my side of the story. You're the one who brought up that ex shit and you know for a fact that it hurts to hear shit like that. You act like im a fking stone that dont feel shit. You hurt me too and you know that cuz ur good at it. I look bad cuz only you know what really happened and you're just gonna tell them what I did and now what you did. Shit I always gotta look bad cuz they hear the shit from you.

Sat morning at 3am

John's bday.Paolo is missing cuz he went home early.

Finally

2009-06-05T10:02:00.000-07:00

Out of school. I feel sad and I already miss high school. Thinking about everything I went through since freshman year, ten years from now I bet I wish I could go back to being a freshman and change some things. Im happy with the outcome of my highschool year. I wish I tried harder or maybe I should have took my SAT's and went to a prestigious school. Shoulda never got mixed with some bad people in the past but hey its life we learn from our mistakes. Its the turning point of my life and its time to face the real world. Its hard to face reality but we got to face it to make it through. I hope I do good in college. I hope I get over some things and make myself happier. Im satisfied with my life but things could be better. Now that I know I fucked up in highschool, Ill try to make the best out of college. As for my personal life, I'll try to improve myself and change some things. My flaws makes me a human being. No one is perfect. Every person has their own flaws. If you don't like it then too bad. I've changed alot already and still dont appreciate what I do. Sorry if I try too fucking hard but thats just me. I give up. It aint never gonna happen again. Life goes on. I have to make myself happy with or without you.Well thanks for coming anyways and for the pictures. At least I had someone to take pictures for me. I appreciate it.

Anyways congratulations class of '09. We fucking made it. I look like a kid who wouldn't even graduate or anything. I dont get why everyone thinks im a dumbass or something and the fact that I barely go to school makes it even worse. Well anyways I graduated rank 32.Im happy with that.
Pics from Janel(yojanel.blogspot.com)

Valedictorian

Salutatorian.My competition ever since freshman year

graduation

2009-06-03T21:30:00.001-07:00

ahhh after all these years..high school went by hella fast and tomorrow is the big day..june 4th, a date i wont forget. So many things happens on the 4th of the month. All my hard work paid off .Well I didnt really work hard but I still put effort on it. I hope I do good in college. Its the turning point of my life. I gotta get my life together and til now I dont know what I want cuz apparently I can't always get what I want. All I want tomorrow is one thing. I know I wont be able to get it but its cool. Tomorrow is a big day for me.

Well no matter how bad I want to get what I want for graduation, Im not gonna be able to get it. I've tried but I failed. I hope you know what I want. Well its not a matter of what but its a matter of who. If you do come then thank you.

bestfriend.

DXC

2009-05-31T10:53:00.001-07:00

was fun.Thanks to chelsea for driving me there and back to my house to get some shoes haha sorry!I couldnt make up my mind.But yeah it was chill.Got offers of 250 for royals and someone wanted to trade it for bred 4s. I said no to both. i love my royals haha.After DXC we went to in out to eat and chilled for a minute.Damn I finished a pack in less than a day...tsk tsk anyways here are pics.

Thanks Renjie (renjmeister.blogspot.com) for the pics

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2009-05-27T12:39:00.000-07:00

It hurts to see us being like this. I've never been devastated as much as this in my whole entire life.I can't do anything about it. I think about you day and night tryna figure out what's going on. You wanted me to leave you alone and im trying to but its too hard. I dont want you to be just another face in my life. I dont need and want anyone else. I could honestly say you're the best gf I've ever had. I know I'm not the best for you but I could try to change to make things work out. I know you're sick and tired of me and that's fine. I just wonder if you still think about me, care about us, love me and if we're even gonna get back together. Only time could tell. All I could do is wait. I might be waiting for nothing but its worth the risk.At least I tried. I'll do whatever it takes to have u back in my life. I hope you still love me. I know I've made alot of mistakes but hey I'm trying to learn from it. I didnt know what you wanted because you never told me what you want. I admit that I've abused you emotionally. I was too selfish and ignorant about everything. I'll change my ways just for you. For once, I'm actually scared to lose someone. I was too controlling and too much of an asshole. Sorry for everything. Sorry for the way I treated you. I know none of these matters but I just wanted to let you know how I feel. Sorry for never putting you as my priority. I've always put you aside and now that you're gone, I realize how special you are to me. I realize how painful it is to be like this. I realized that my life wont be the same. You were the only girl I cried over with. I was so unfair in this relationship and I admit it. I should have never locked you down. Sorry if I was too insecure and too much of a jealous man. I should have never abused your love. I should have treated you better. Now no matter what I do or what I say, nothing will ever matter to you because I know that you really dont care. I've cared so much that I didn't even see that it starts to hurt you or piss you off. I am over protective and I know that. I should have watched over my actions so that we didn't had to end up like this. I should have showed that I truely care instead of just bitching at you for stupid and dumb shit. I've made alot of mistakes. Hopefully you give me one last chance. Til then I'll be waiting..

Thinking of what we had and putting it into waste hurts me alot. I knew I should have spent more time with you instead of complaining about you visiting me. If I could go back in time, I'll change everything that I did so we didnt had to end up like this. I guess regrets are always really in the end.

I'll love you always and forever.

senior picnic

2009-05-22T20:49:00.001-07:00

pretty fun.i dunked almost everybody in the pool haha.hella scratches tho.told you jose fucking go haha dick.

4/2-4/3

2009-05-03T21:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday babe came over to chill and then I had work in the afternoon. I didn't get to see the fight because by the time I got home, pacman already whooped hatton's ass so I had to watch it online this morning. Yesterday night was pretty fun. Went to chill with paolo,clint,john,kris and claire at her house to go drink and hookah. I got a lil bit buzzed but paolo and clinton was hella drunk. They both threw up lol. This morning I woke up hella late when I was planning to go visit babe around 10. I went to go see her around 2 and watched twilight with her haha. That was like the 3rd time I watched that movie. Tomorrow is me and babe's 6 months and I can't make it. I got work. Im sorry I swear I'll make it up to you babe.

2009-04-28T20:56:00.000-07:00

SO today I worked things out with babe and yeah. I went to go see her and talk things out. I love you and I miss you babe.

Look at what she put on my itouch.

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2009-04-28T04:17:00.000-07:00

It's 4am and I can't sleep.I've been waiting for my phone to vibrate and see if you'll call.I've been thinking about us lately.I can't take this.You're really something different. I dont wan't you to be just another face in my life. I tried my best but my best wasn't good enough. I wasnt ready to let go at all. I tried everything just to make you stay.I just want you to know that I love you. You'll always have a place in my heart. I have never met anyone like you before. You're different from all the girls I went out with.You were the person who mad me happy the most but at the same time you we're the same person who hurt me the most. All I did was care but I guess you felt tied up to me since I dont want you doing certain things. Do what you have and want to do. Ill try to be happy as long as your happy.Seriously thanks for everything. I wont be able to forget you and I wont try to. You've made so much of an impact in my life. I've never cried over a girl like this before. I guess things really can happen anytime. You never know what life will give you. I just have to face reality that I can't really have everything that I want and need but why does it have to be something that's a big part of my life. I felt like that my life broke into pieces. I lost my other half. I shoulda gave you my everything. I didn't expect it to be like this. I wasn't ready at all. I dont wanna give up on you but I felt like no matter how hard I try to push myself to you, nothing will happen. It's like if I was walking and I tripped, you'd just see me fall and laugh and walk away. We always can't decide who's gonna stay or who's gonna leave in our lives. There's always things that we can't control ourselves. I don't wanna risk losing you forever. I'm sorry if I really pushed myself towards you but like I said I dont wanna lose someone who's made a big difference to me. I guess all I could do now is reminisce about everything and try to think what went wrong. i've become a better man cuz of you. I've learned alot from the things that happened between you and me. I've lost a great person in my life. I just hope I could get through this. I've asked you to work this out with me but you didn't want to. I can't do anything anymore. I feel like theres no more hope. I don't wanna give up but theres no choice. No matter what I do, your mind is set already. All I could do now is sit down, try to be happy and wait. Thanks for the memories

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."- MM

"Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop."

Late Blog like always

2009-04-22T23:05:00.000-07:00

Its been hot as hell for the past few days.Ive been lazy to skate and shit.Today was pretty chill.Chilled with some friends and then chilled with my gf for a bit then went home.

Pics from the other day.

Thanks Karl for the pics

Hot Ass Day

2009-04-19T22:40:00.001-07:00

So yesterday my gf visited me.We haven't kicked it in a long time and it feels so good to see someone u miss so much.We played with my brother's ds and my sister's dsi and played mario kart.Fucker owned me in that game cuz i never play that game anyways haha.Messed around with the dsi and took pics with it.Browser on the dsi is pretty fast compared to my itouch.We ate then bounced after that.Took her to seton and then I went back to FRS to skate.

huf logo

2009-04-16T13:21:00.000-07:00

I've been busy lately that's why I'm blogging about this pretty late.

First in line.8:30 the day before release,we were there.People didnt come til like midnight. IMO its worth the wait since they didn't come with many quantities in my size. 15 hours of waiting is pretty eh.

Pics from Karl

gay

ucsb x james bday

2009-04-13T00:09:00.000-07:00

Late blog cuz I've been busy all week.Last monday was James' bday and we ate at moonstar. 18 now and I could beat his ass and he cant do anything about it ahhaha.JK.Then went to Jose's house to sleepover and go santa barbara the next day. It was pretty fun going on road trips.Shout out to jose ramsey mike and steven.Homo as fuck LMAO.I say its pretty chill at UCSB.Too many white people tho.On the way home we stopped by foodmaxx at this one place.omfg their shit over there are cheap as fuck.A big bag of chips is like a 1.50 and a big bottle of gatorade is 89 cents!!!its a dollar cheaper. We took alot of stops cuz all of us are like falling asleep and the weather is crazy.Its raining for 10mins then its ognna be hella hat then 10 mins again its gonna rain. I loved the trip. OnceI start driving Imma always go on a road trip.

wtf LOL

We stopped here -_-

5 months x summit

2009-04-05T20:51:00.000-07:00

So yesterday was me and my gf's 5 months.We spent it at the summit haha. Met couple of new people and shit.Went to downtown after.Then we went to Karl's house via Gonzalo.Fuck gonzalo if you're reading this your bass is fucking sick LOL.That shit was banging my fucking ears. Went home chill for a bit with some friends then got kicked out of frs.My head hella hurts yesterday.Oh well.

Pics from Karl,Jose and Rolo.

Royal 1's

fuck those fakes haha

Windy ass day

2009-04-03T23:57:00.000-07:00

Sucks balls.Chilled yesterday and skate today.Landed nollie bigs so im satisfied.

Here are pics.

Late blog

2009-03-31T13:06:00.000-07:00

So here are the pics from last sunday.

Proms is coming up and I need to buy my tickets.T_T.

Hard ass flip

rally

2009-03-29T21:09:00.000-07:00

is weak as fuck. Im not gonna see or talk to my gf for a week cuz she has gay ass outdoor ed.Skated today but pics arent up yet cuz gay ass clinton is lagging.

Pics for rally.Thanks to Jose and Gonzalo.

3/20/09

2009-03-22T11:22:00.000-07:00

So this was the first day I chilled with Clinton after he got back from the hospital.Ive been really sick this past couple of days. Jay also came after like idk how many months we havent seen this boy.No more drugs for Jay hahaha. Gaylyssa and her cousin krissy (sp) was with Jay and they called me to chill I guess even tho I was really really sick. Haven't seen Alyssa since last July!!! That fag always flakes on me. Never went to dxc LOL.

sick

2009-03-18T21:52:00.000-07:00

So i've been sick for about 3 days now.I hate coughing and being cold all the time. Today same old shit. Went to school for one period then went home. Gf came over we ate and yeah.After that I went out to go skate for a bit to warm my body up.

"The best thing about me is you"

3/13-3/14

2009-03-16T20:38:00.000-07:00

Last friday went to Monroe's party but no pics T_T.Saturday was pretty fun. I went to my gf's godson's bday and yeah. I ate alot surprisingly and we were just playing scrabble half of the time. I think I should spend more time with my gf cuz I'm starting to miss her a whole lot more now.

3/11-3/12

2009-03-12T21:37:00.000-07:00

I visited my gf yesterday since she was sick.She had a mild flu. Clinton is at UCSF. Found out he had a brain tumor after his first surgery. He's gonna have surgery tomorrow so yeah. I hope you feel better bro.

cellphone pic sorry

3/8/09

2009-03-08T11:14:00.001-07:00

Im tired of everything.I just feel like giving up on every single thing that I have.Its like everything just really falls on me at once so I could be on the ground and could never get up no more. Friend's in the hospital,haven't seen my mom for 4 years, and now no gf. Yeah complete emotional breakdown. I really don't know why these things happen to me when all I do is try to make everything work but things doesn't like working it out with me. Its like I put effort on something to happen but the results didn't come out as I was expecting it to be. I try my best on everything. Im on the verge of a turning point in my life. Its time for me to get a job and going to college soon. I hope I dont slack off or anything. I'm going to be more focused now. I'm getting distracted with everything that's coming to me. I'm overwhelmed by everything. In every single thing I have or do, there's always got to be something wrong. My bestfriend is in the philippines too so I really have no one to talk to. I'm gonna try to live my life to the fullest. I hope that everything that'll I work for will pay off one day and I hope that the things I do or the moves I make will make my life at least a little better or better yet, a whole lot better. I'm tired of being that one kid who is looked at as a dumbass because of the way I look and shit. I know I might not be that much of an intelect, but I'm pretty damn sure that I work hard enough to get the things that I want.

"Always turn a negative situation into a positive one"- MJ

I just want you to know that I love you but if that's your decision, then there's nothing I could do. I hope you succeed with w.e your gonna do with your life and I hope you have a good life. Everything I said about you is true. You'll always have a place in my heart and I'll never forget about you. You came to my life for a reason. You changed my in a whole lot of different ways. Thank you for everything.Thanks for the memories.

"Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional"

"It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, while the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through. I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail while you can't seem to remember me at all."

"You know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if their happiness means that you're not part of it."

survive-gabrielle

happy 4 months babe!

2009-03-04T20:37:00.000-08:00

So yeah today I went to school, went home to drop off my bag and went to ohs to pick up Janel.After that we went to my house and chilled and yeah.It was a pretty chill day today.Skated and played manhunt.

Who would have thought we'd make it this far? From day one, we've both predicted we're not gonna last that long.I mean it's only been 4 months and it feels like longer than a year already. We started lower than the sea and now, we're rising to the sky. Every single day,my love for you grows. I find it funny how we used to argue alot during our first 2 months or so and now barely even argue. I guess we learned right away from our mistakes during those first 2 months. Our relationship is just getting better and better everyday. We're on top and I hope we'll stay that way. Love is an everyday thing.We keep working on it because we want to be in this relationship. When we stop working,then our relationship will die. We tend to sacrifice because we want this to work out. WE both need to cooperate with each other. As we keep on growing up, there's only on thing that'll never change, and that is my love.I know I sound corny,but hey its my heart that's speaking for me. When I met you, I thought you're just gonna be another face that I went out with and will forget about. But as time went on, my perspective changed. I found out that I want you stay with me for awhile. I realized that I'm really satisfied and I'm enjoying my life while I'm with you. You've change me in alot of different ways. You are really something special.Its funny how we're both jerks to each other and look how it turned out to be. We've been going out for 4 months. That guy that ruins your day by just iming you is your bf now haha. I dont know what Im gonna do if I lose you. I really NEVER felt something like this before. I feel so complete when I'm with you, and when you're not with me, I miss you like crazy even if I just saw you couple hours ago. I really really love you and I mean it. I will cherish every moment that I'm with you cuz you never know what could happen next. I just want you to know that no matter what happens, you'll have a place in my heart and I always got your back.

"When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you."

Man talk sundays

2009-03-01T21:00:00.000-08:00

I copy pasted clinton's post on tumblr.here is a brief summary of what we did today.

For the dxc post,go to my older posts.

So its man talk sundays and shit it was ok. We was randomly talkin bout Super heroes? here’s our talk..

Paolo: Who’s that one bitch that can walk through walls?
Me: PUSSY!
Clinton: WTF? i thought it was kitty
me: oh yea! Kitty i mean. i was thinkin bout pussy cat. you know.
All of us: PWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Well the day goes on and we talk bout fighting and shit. and it comes to the no homo conversation. Iron dick or something. Paolo’s bust out some shit. SUPER SAIYAN 6, all these random sound affects coming from him. hahahaa. too funny.
Man talk days required: Beer, cigarette, food, and music.
Stay tuned cause more HOMO shit coming yo way. haha

DXC

2009-03-01T09:56:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 6.Went to dxc around 11.

Here are pics.

Pics from Rolo
dunksrnice.net

From Charles.

Pick up
Royal 1's for me and 94 White cements fro my gf.

2/27

2009-02-28T06:20:00.000-08:00

Just went to chill today with the bros.I was pretty tired since I worked out before anything.Today is dxc so hopefully I get some pictures since I dont have a camera man (renjie) T_T.I miss you bro.

Here are some pics from yesterday

HIHIHIHI.Me of course.

rainy day

2009-02-23T21:27:00.000-08:00

I hate it.Just chilled with Paolo and Clinton today.Talking about the past and shit.These 2 fuckers are buzzed as fk.I love these guys specially when they're drunk haha.

Here are the pics

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2009-02-22T20:32:00.000-08:00

It takes 2 to tango.Of course a relationship won't work if there's only one person who's tryna make it work right?Seriously how will a relationship work if the other one wont cooperate at all?It wont go anywhere if nothing happens.People work things out to make things better not for worse.That's why people get into relationships, to try to see their flaws and try to correct them.To experience different things and to learn things from mistakes.To act upon our flaws and straighten things up.None of us could be perfect that's why we try to be at least near perfection right?If a person doesn't care,then they wont nag about anything.People get mad for a reason and they tell their partners what's wrong because they care.They don't tell them stuff to make things worst.They tell them what's wrong so they'll know that you have to correct your wrongs.People dont see their own flaw that's why other people tell you your flaws.Of course all of us would think that we're perfect or we're always right?When people tell us what's wrong with us or our flaws,then we have to accept it and act upon it.Now its up to us if we're gonna correct that flaw.Everything is in our hands.In a relationship,we should be able to satisy each other's needs. We do things that'll make our significant one happy even if our own happiness is in exchange. We do things to make things work even if we won't like what's gonna happen to ourselves as long as our partner is happy and content. Sometimes we just have to be selfless and do what's gonna make them happy.We all have different opinions on everything.That's how people start to argue because both of the person arguing think their both right.In the end,both of them calms down because one of them accepts the fact that the other one is right and they're wrong.

Love is hard to explain.Its something to show not say.There are alot of things why people love a certain person but when you ask them why you love them,you can't really give them a straight up answer.Love is something that could be out of control.It's more than words.

In the end,the person who we love the most,will hurt us the most.Might as well cherish the times that we are happy with them right now than worrying about the future.Handle what's infront of you and be content with it.

2/20-2/21

2009-02-21T21:48:00.000-08:00

So yesterday I picked babe up from her house,chilled at my house and ate kfc and subway.After I chilled with the gf,I worked out and skate.

2/21-Jeremiah's 18th.Happy bday bro.Chilled with gf and went to the party fo a bit and left.Sorry bro I had to.

2/21

2/20

WDYWT

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2009-02-17T08:08:00.000-08:00

So last sunday me,renjie and jose went to downtown to go shopping in the fucking rain(cuz real shoppers shop in the rain).We found a HUF Rakim shirt but sz XXL(sucks) then we met up with Karl later on and went over to his house and ended up sleeping over.Ate and played halo til 5am.

here are the pics(More are coming later on since Karl doesn't have an external hard drive.)

Driver told us to take a pic of him -_-

wdywt

BFL nigga

Bathroom fail

Rakim Shirt

Burger shots

Haircut

Valentines Day

2009-02-14T18:50:00.000-08:00

So today I picked my gf up at colma bart then we went to serramonte to buy food and stuff .After that we went to my house to watch a movie and eat.She got me this heart shaped cookie that says "I loaf you" haha.I love you babe.This is my best valentine ever.Thanks for everything.

Gift from babe

My gift for babe.

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2009-02-13T13:50:00.000-08:00

I haven't blogged for awhile.Lately we've been arguing alot over stupid stuff.I guess we both got our share of mistakes.Im sorry for mistreating you.I just feel like I'm never good enough for you.You do expect alot from me but I can't blame you for that.I guess I just have to try my best to live up with it and try to make you happy.You already know that I'm the type of person who would say something because I mean it not because I wanna say what you wanna hear.When I say something,I mean it.Hopefully you could accept the fact that I can't be like everybody else that you know.Everyone is different and you know that.I got my own ways of showing my love and others do too.You need to realize that I really do love you.Maybe you just can't see it because all you could see is the negativity.I could be wrong but it's just me.I got my own perspective of what love is.

Its funny that when you ask someone why do they love you, you can't really give them a straight up answer. People love each other in mysterious ways and truly that love can only be shown through actions.You don't know how I feel towards you.You really have no idea how I get hurt easily.You don't see the sacrifices that I do for you.I know you appreciate me at times but you have to notice the effort that im putting in this relationship.

Im sorry for everything.Sorry for making your life harder.All I want is to be with you and you know that.I hope we last for awhile.I will cherish every moment that I'm with you.

"If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back theyd never ask you to."

"The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring."

To the world,you are only one person,but to me ,you are my world.I love you babe.

idk

2009-02-03T09:00:00.000-08:00

Sorry for adding weight to your shoulders.Hope you do good and be successful.Do what you have to do.

just let it go-4tune

....

2009-01-07T22:49:00.000-08:00

Your dumb and you know it.Your saying all this shit about me.Yeah you think im fking dumb ignorant and narrow minded but you see things differently cuz your small brain doesn't have the capacity to fucking understand shit at all.I know when Im right or wrong.I admit it when I'm wrong.Your saying im ignorant when you yourself,admits it that your playing dumb.Are you really playing dumb or your just saying you are to play it off when later you find out that you are acting dumb and say you did it in purpose so that you will come out as a more intelligent or as what you say manipulative person.Your the hypocrite since you like doing the things you,yourself dont want me doing.Your getting the treatment you are getting because you are acting in a way that you wanted to be treated as.For example,if you are REALLY playing dumb and shit,you will be treated as if you are really a dumbass or another example is,if you are acting like a bitch,you are gonna be treated like a bitch.Now think before you act.Act like a pig and you will be treated as one.Easy as that.Now tell me that your dumbass should be treated any better if your not acting any better.Just the way your acting right now makes you seem that you are really low.Your the one whos making me look superior,not me.If you act dumb and I act smart,then whos superior?I am smarter than you are and you know it.You won't evne use your damn common sense.If you think acting stupid and dumb is smart,think again.I maybe not be as smart as you are in school,but I'm pretty damn sure that I'm smarter than you are in general.IF you acting stupid and dumb is being manipulative in your opinion,then fucking think again because that shit is fuckign ridiculous.You make me mad in purpose for what?For your entertainment or some shit?See now whos pathetic you or me?Bitch if there's something your lacking,that is your damn common sense.Grow the fuck up and mature sometimes.You think every shit around you is a fucking joke.It's hypocritical how all the shit you wrote about me reflects most of the shit about you.You like doing shit that you don't want me doing.Your an imbecile and you know it.Your so called intelligence is a waste because you are not using it.You think your always right when you're not.If I was wrong I won't say shit about it,but too bad I'm right.You won't say shit to me cuz there's nothing for you to say.Ill prove you wrong anytime,anyday and when I do,you will fucking realize how dumb and stupid you are.

Sorry but making me mad in purpose is by far,the most stupid shit I've ever seen.You don't care if getting me mad will be the end of the line for us and even if you are making me mad in purpose,you don't know where to stop.You always push me to my limits and its annoying.I just never say shit to you.One day you find out that your actions will give out results that you won't like.Now,you should think twice before doing shit.

2009

2009-01-01T15:31:00.000-08:00

08 went by hella fast and now its 09.Six more months til I graduate damn.Everyone's gonna go take their own paths after highschool.Im gonna be busy as fk with work and school.08 tops 07 for me since I've had too many family problems last 07 but oh well.I dont regret anything.I usually just take mistakes as a way to learn instead of regretting it.This year,I accomplished a couple of things and also did alot of mistakes.09 will be a better year for me because it's a turning point of my life wherein I have to try to be independent and be more serious about school.I went through 3 gf's in 2008.Hopefully Ill stay with my gf for awhile or maybe even forever. It already feels like we've been together for so long because of everything that happened but I guess its a good thing that all those events happened in a way that we learned from it already and will make everything better.We're actually doing better now.O well.Bye 08 Hi 09.Im graduating LOLOLOLOL.

btw,Sold alot of kicks but copped my grails.

Some pics from 08.Sorry for different sizes.

12/23-now

2008-12-30T22:28:00.000-08:00

holy shit.I've had one hell of a week.Been having fam problems but me and my gf is doing great right now.Haven't fought or anything.12/23 tho i mean 12/24 at 1am got caught up blazing at renjie's house.All bad.Me and nick got kicked out and shit good thing rachel picked us up and let us sleep over.Shout out to rachel.thanks alot.If it wasnt for you,I would have been sleeping the streets at richmond.Later on the day,I went to my uncle's house and celebrate christmas.I got ome money,giftcard and gears 2...12/26-I kicked it with my girl,gave her my gift for her.Hope you love my gift haha.12/27-I slept at my uncle's house to spend some time with my auntie and cousin from chicago.12/28-Supposedly I was gonna go movies with my gf but her mom didn't let her so I ended up sleeping the whole day and catch up on my sleep.12/29-12/30-Spent quality time with my gf at her house.I love you babe.

Here are some pics from Renjie's house and from today at my gf's house and my gift for her.

Bored as fk

2008-12-22T12:45:00.001-08:00

I'm fking hella bored and I'm doing this survey cuz my gf told me to.See things that I do for you babe:D.

Have you thought about an ex today?
nah

Where is the person who has your heart at the moment?
taking a shower at home

Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you?
yeah

Are you waiting for something?
no

Missing anyone at the moment?
babe.

Would you date someone who lived in another state?
no

When's the last time you said you were fine, but really weren't?
never

Could you handle a long distance relationship?
yeah

Have you ever been called heartless?
no not really.

Relationships or one night stands?
relationships

Is there something special you want for Christmas?
I want a peacoat or bred 1s

Do you hold grudges?
no

Have you ever loved someone who didn't love you back?
idk

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
last saturday

When was the last time you cried?
forgot
Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you're sure they won't tell?
yeah.

Has anyone ever told you they love you?
My family and my girlfriend

When was the last time you were disappointed?
saturday

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
Yeah.

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
yeah

What happened at 9:00 am today?
I was still sleeping

What were you doing at 7:00 AM?
sleeping

What were you doing 1 hour ago?
phone with some crazy people including my gf

What was the last thing you said aloud?
fuck u bitch!

What was the last thing you bought?
food.

Do you laugh alot?
Yeah

Do you have plans tomorrow?
Yeah

Are you ticklish?
Yes

Who's the last person to call you?
hazel but my gf is on the line too

Have you ever wished you had a different last name?
nope

What's bothering you right now?
nothing really

Do people under estimate you?
always.

Do you wear a lot of black?
black is my fave color

Can you sleep without blankets covering you?
no

Whats the first thing you did when you woke up this morning?
read my gf's text and txt her back

How old do you look?
idk 14?

What were you doing at ten last night?
sleeping

Did you cry today?
no

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
yes.but my gf loves me tho

Have you ever experienced a "crazy ex"?
nah.im the crazy one.JK

Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
not really.i hate being on the phone

Do you like to cuddle?
with my gf

Will you be sleeping alone tonight?
no i share a room with my bro

Do you consider yourself lucky?
yeah in every single way.

Have you ever found yourself worrying about commitment?
No

What's the longest period of time you've ever had a crush?
dont know

Last place you hugged someone?
bart

What color is your hair?
dark brown

Who is the last person you got really pissed off at?
Babe

Does anyone know your password besides you?
bitch ass renjie and jose

Do you want someone you can't have?
I could really have anyone:D.JK JK.I already have my gf.

Summit

2008-12-21T22:54:00.000-08:00

Summit was a fail so we all ended up just kicking it.Tried to find some gifts for my loved ones but I failed.I just woke up from a massive headache.Here are some pics for today.

pics from my bitch jose.

I took this snap shot.Hi babe:D

Teejay:It's g-ed!!!

Rain.

12/19-12/20

2008-12-20T14:12:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was fun.Went to the city with my girlfriend and JJ and Carlos.We were supposed to go iceskating but things didnt go through as planned.We walked around sf and went to chevy's after and I spent time with my gf.I was so full last night haha.After that I went home,dropped off the food and went to Mikey's.These niggas dont got dro or anything at all.So we ended up going to denny's and ate 3 plates of nachos and fries then went to 711 to get some more food then went back to Mikey's house but unfortunately,Kris' lost his phone.Justin walked over a beemer and the alarm went off and everyone started running.That shit was hilariousWhen we got back to Mikey's they made some margarita and smoked the residue out of mikey's pipe then after that we watched happy gilmore and kris fell asleep first so we drew dicks in his face haha.I went home around 630,slept and woke up at 9.Some bullshit came up.My fucking gf told me to go serramonte then I got ready when I was done,she told me nevermidn and dont go and to find out she fucking stayed for 2 more hours after she told me that she was leaving.What a fucking bullshit.I swear to God I hate people like that.

Winterbreak

2008-12-19T08:46:00.000-08:00

Shit finals is over,Im halfway through my senior year and I could feel that this semester will go by so fast.fuck Im gonna miss highschool.I have a feeling I'll cry when I graduate.Shit hopefully I didnty fail physics and trig wooo.Finals wee is hella stressing.I didn't even study at all so I had a hard time taking the test and shit.O well what I learned should be applied to those fuckers.Last tuesday was a good day. I cleared 3 stairs with pop shuv and ollie.Yesterday was a good day too. My gf visited me at home. We ate and watched a movie.I was hella full since she didn't finish her food so I had to finish it all.Today we're gonna go make gingerbread houses and iceskating -_-.

I miss you and I love you babe.

O btw ISS,sunday see you guys there.

Winterball

2008-12-15T12:12:00.000-08:00

More pics.
We got stopped twice by the vice principal LMAO.

I was giving her a lapdance

farewellxwinterball

2008-12-14T00:19:00.000-08:00

Damn crazy night tonight.My whole body hurts cuz of all that bumpin and grindin.Fun ass night with babe at her winterball.Thanks babe for bringing me and I love you.On the other hand,Kristian,one of my bestfriends,is leaving for the navy so we had a sleepover at jofers house.So sad but he got to do what he needs to do.I wish you luck bro and dont forget about us.Yesterday was rally at jeff and yeah.it was alright.Ill post pics of the rally later on this week.

Sleepover at Jofer's.

winterball

Fatigue

2008-12-13T00:04:00.001-08:00

Today was a good day. I'm tired right now because of school and we had a rally today. I am currently at Jofer's house right now with Kris,Jose,Mike and Ramsey. We played ps3 and shit earlier. We are currently watching super bad and will watch wanted and shit later. Im going to my gf's winterball tomorrow. Hope she gets a black dress shirt for me and a tie haha so that I could go.Today was fun and tiring.

I will post pics later.

I miss and love Janel Mendoza I mean Verzon LMAO.

winterball with her tomorrow.

Thxdisney

2008-12-11T20:00:00.000-08:00

Last night I fell asleep when I was supposed to call Janel.This morning I woke up with a sore throat and a headache.School was so fucking boring that I started to fall asleep at tutorial.O well.I got out of school at 144 and went straight to the hundreds.I copped the lost boys tee but I was surprised that retail was $38. I couldn't buy the tens tee for Janel because I was short. I took bart home and I saw Chelsea. I haven't seen her for hella long haha but yeah it was nice seeing her again. I went out and skate but ended up chilling and talked to Paolo about things.

Good day.

thxdisney

Gf's family party+Pacquiao fight+meetup with renjie

2008-12-07T13:38:00.001-08:00

So yesterday morning I woke up at fking 8am for a meetup with Renjie then me and my gf were talking about if I should go to her family party so then I talked to Renjie bout it and said I HAVE to go so then I did. My gf said he's my master LMAO.So I went to my gf's family party and chilled with her,eat and watch the fight. Her family is cool. I got to talk to most of her family members and I spoke in tagalog LOL. I knew speaking tagalog would come in handy one day. Her cousins ketp on cappin on me about her ex but I didn't get offended cuz I'm used to that kind of stuff. It was a pretty good day. I hope my gf is happy that I went haha. I was pretty tired and I slept right away when I got home. Good thing I decided to go because if I didn't, I would have been home watching tv or something haha.

Its pretty ironic how her dad has that mean face when he sees me and her mom has a happy face when she sees me but her mom don't like me because she's pro timmy(her ex) and her dad likes me. Her auntie and her siblings also likes me so its all good. I dont know about her drunk uncles LOL but yeah. Got to talk to most of them and I guess me speaking tagalog was a big plus haha. I tried working my charm. Hopefully when I get to talk to her mom more, she would eventually like me. Some of her family members thinks im chinese O.O and she told her dad I am chinese haha but she was jk tho. Her uncles tried scaring me and stuff but I'm used to it haha.On the way home,her uncles talked about sex sex sex sex and sex haha. I said "I'm not like that, I'm a good boy". Great day with babe yesterday.

Excuse my ugly face and hers too.

I love you and I miss you babe.

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Monthsarry

2008-12-04T22:52:00.000-08:00

So today was a great today. School sucks balls. Afterschool I went home and change and went to bayshore to see my gf for 5mins. I went home skate then all of a sudden my gf is at seton hospital which is like few blocks away from my house because her sister got sick so then I visited her and chilled with her at the hospital so we basically spent our 1 month in a hospital weeeeeeeeeeee so weird but yet so good. I'm gonna visit her in the morning so I'm gonna wake up at 530 weeee oh fuck haha.O well its love.

I love you and I miss you babe

GMJV11408559

wednesdays

2008-12-03T22:59:00.000-08:00

Today was an ok day. School was boring as usual and gonzalo didn't upload my wdywt yet fking dickhead. Chilled with Paula afterschool to get some earphones then head out to fernando and skate with Paolo and Clinton.

1 month tomorrow with my babe. We're not even gonna do anything for tomorrow haha. It feels like forever but its been only been a month.

I need to get back on track and start working out again. I've been slacking alot lately and been out of shape. I need some weights now cuz I can't do as much push ups like before cuz my wrists starts to hurt. For those who thinks I'm on steroids, I'm not it's all pure work.

Pacman Vs Dela Hoya. I have a feeling dela hoya will take this one but you never know. All the fights dela hoya lost was supposed to be a dream for him but it all turned into nightmares. I'm going for pacman don't get me wrong. I just dont know how he would be in a different weight division. Dela Hoya has more experience than Pacman but Pacman is the best pound per pound fighter right now. I just hope pacman wins.

I got this from the hundreds

I love you more everyday

2008-12-02T21:20:00.001-08:00

So like today boring ass day in school and had a fucking test in econ which I probably failed. I hate school. If I fail physics I'm gonna be taking 4-5 classes instead of 2-3 classes next sem.What a bitch. O well. Today my baby was still sick and she said she look like a tomato LMAO. Hope you get better babe. My fucking stomach was hurting all day omfg.Not so good. I came home, changed and skated. Cleared 3 stairs today but the cops came so we got kicked out.I was surprised when I cleared it.

Everyday my,my love keeps on growing. I don't know but I just think about you all day long. I just can't stop thinking bout you and I miss you alot. I hate how we both dont have time for each other. I wish that you could go out more often and your parents weren't too strict. You're someone who I feel comfortable around with and I enjoy being with. I love how you could make me laugh and I LOVE BITING your face hahahaha.LALALALALALA I love you babe.

I love this girl

And I miss this fag no homo

GMJV11408559

Sick x2

2008-12-01T21:45:00.001-08:00

I think I got stomach flu but Im not sure. I threw up blood and my stomach hurts like fuck. I feel like I was dying when I was throwing up.

I miss my gf like seriously. I regret bitching at her for the past few days. I realized how much of a bitch I am and I feel like I'm stepping on her. Renjie told me that dont treat her that low and shit. He's right. I shouldn't be treating my girlfriend like that. Im sorry and I love you babe. I also got into an argument with my uncle for calling my girlfriend ugly. I told him to stfu before I kick his ass then an argument started. O well I dont give a fuck. Ill fight for my gf if i have to

I'm thankful God gave her to me. I feel complete now that shes on my side. She makes me happy and I love being with her. I feel like me and her have been together for so long but it haven't even hit a month yet. I feel like its been forever. I love her and I know that for a fact that I'd do anything for her. Never had a feeling like this before. Everytime I see her, I still get butterflies. I feel so comfortable around her. I love you and I miss you babe.

Lemonade-Passion

She's soothing like the ocean rushing on the sand
She takes care of me baby
And she helps me be a better man
She's so beautiful, sometimes I stop close my eyes
She's exactly what I need

And look what a coincidence.Sent on 143 am.

GMJV11408559

Sick

2008-11-30T23:31:00.000-08:00

So like I'm bored as fuck right now and I'm getting sick. I think I'm catching a cold right now. I hate being sick physically and emotionally. I'm sick and tired of arguing all the time. I just don't know sometimes why am I still in this. I went out with you for a reason. I found happiness and I enjoy being with you. I know that I don't deserve this kind of treatment and same goes to you. I like being dominant and always being right but is being dominant and being right the best thing to happen? I feel like I've always stepped on you. You gave up your pride and dignity just to be with me. I appreciate the effort you put in this relationship. Sometimes I feel like this relationship is going nowhere. We're both fucking up too much. I have faith in this relationship. I feel that I'm not good enough for you. You know that you deserve better. Both of us deserves the best but is the best the best thing for both of us? I get heated and jealous too fast and I dont know why. I think it's just that I care too much. I care too much to the extent that I start to become selfish. I hate it when I'm like that. I'm self centered and stubborn. We all control the outcome/result of everything we do. We should know the consequences and be prepared for it. I've been hurt too many times that sometimes it just doesn't hurt me no more. I'm getting stronger and stronger in both good and bad ways. I get stronger to overcome things faster but I seem to care less at the same time. Not a good thing but it is what it is. I did some fucked up things and you did too. I think we really need to start to understand each other cuz this relationship is just getting worse and it's going nowhere. We need to get back in track and make this happen. We're in this together. It takes 2 make this relationship work.

Im fucking 17 now bros. I love my gf.

GMJV11408559

finally 17.

2008-11-30T10:52:00.000-08:00

fuck I'm already old as fk. Finally turned 17 but it still feels like I'm 16. Im the fucking youngest senior at jeff haha. Thanks to everyone who greeted me happy birthday. I got a shitload of txts,ims, calls and comments. Anthony even made a countdown last night haha. Renjie was the 1st one who greeted me then Paula's the 2nd one and then Jasmine isthe 3rd one. Since ALYSSA BISO wanna be in this,here you go haha you cunt face. Jasmine made me a video for my bday. How sweet lmao. Real talk I love Renjie no homo haha. That nigga always got me no matter what. Thanks bro. I dont know what I'm gonna do today but I'm not celebrating my bday. I never celebrate my bday haha. Thanks again everyone.

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Black Friday

2008-11-29T11:24:00.000-08:00

So we went to the hundreds around 8:30 last thursday night. We lined up for 8 1/2 hours and I got mad because there was hella fucking asian kids who cutted infront of us. We were like 15th in line earlier that night and later on we were like 30th. Its all good tho. I chilled with renjie,jose,nick and christene. Later on I met up with my gf and shopped with her. I copped a crewneck and a tee from the hundreds for $72. It was a pretty chill day. I felt bad for the kid in blue jacket when Rolo and them was capping on him. The kid's fault tho for cutting.

I was on the news too. Around 1:41

http://www.ktvu.com/video/18163852/index.html

WDYWT

Props to Renjie and Jose for the pics.

Phone with babe.

Me and Renjie.

sleepy as fk

Thanks Giving

2008-11-27T17:34:00.000-08:00

I stayed home because I was depressed and just didn't feel like doing anything. I went to Paolo's house for a bit and went back home. My family went to Alameda to celebrate thanks giving. Me and Janel are going back out together. I feel relieved and happy. It's weird how she always texts me after a couple of hours to get back with me and I feel happy when she does because I see that she really does care. I guess we both have to make it work. She fucked up big time but I dont hold grudges and I cant stay mad for that long. I love my gf.

Black friday.Lining up with Renjie, Jose and Nick at the hundreds. Ill cut everyone :D

promises

2008-11-27T08:42:00.000-08:00

its true I guess that promises are meant to be broken. I knew I should have just moved on. She broke her promise and its on our relationship. We're over. It hurts but I dont care anymore. I had to do it for our own good. It was the best for us. Its pretty hypocritical that she would rather std with her friends than with me. She wont even do it even once with me. I guess its whatever. I shouldn't have this bullshit specially im turning 17. I dont know if I could be better of with someone else but it was a good run with her. I actually had fun with her and enjoyed her company. She is a good gf and I dont know what's not to like about her. Im done with her. I hate putting up with bullshit. I cried over you to Paula cuz I fucking care. Too much feelings involved is not good. I know im a fking emo ass guy but I guess its w.e. Im done.

All good things come to an end.

This one just ended.

There will never be no "us" no more.

Seperated-usher

rainy days

2008-11-25T18:12:00.000-08:00

I love rainy days.

Today babe came over and we talked things out. I guess both of us needs to make it work. I have faith in this relationship. I know we could make it.

I asked her, "do you love me?" I had a feeling that she will say yes and I was right. I hope she means it. I said "I love you" to her back. I meant what I said. I knew I was falling hard for her. I finally got it out of my chest. I just didn't wanna say it to her a few days back because I wanna say it in person and I felt that she might not believe me. She didn't believe me at 1st. I dont know if she believes me but I hope she do.

I love you babe.

GMJV11408559

2008-11-23T20:01:00.000-08:00

Today me and my girlfriend got into a big arguement that started because of a small thing. I was too stubborn and ignorant enough to understand her point of view but she's the same too. I guess I have to compromise to make things work out. For the 1st time, I actually said sorry to her and I actually meant it. I was sorry for bitching at her and for saying things that I didn't mean and say stuff that hurt her. I was sorry for acting like I dont care about her. I do care about her. I like her alot and I'm falling for her already. It's getting there. I know that it's getting there because I actually get heated when someone fucks around with her and I get jealous now. I'm not a jealous type of person but you know there are times that you could just get jealous. I let little things slip away since I dont want to ruin our relationship. She broke up with me today cuz I'm being stupid and I guess she got carried away with her emotions but you later on we got back together. We both compromised and tried to understand each other. Next time I'll just do what she wants so that she wont get mad at me. I always try to do everything she wants.

She's my everything. I know things are going too fast but the time span never really matters. As long as you feel it already then that's wasup. She's a great person. We all have our negative sides but my girlfriend is different. She's way different from my ex's. Im actually having fun with her and she makes me happy. I enjoy her company. She's cute,gorgeous,adorable,pretty and beautiful. I just don't feel complete without her. I rarely cry over a girl. I went out with you for a reason. I love the way you mess around with me. I love the little things you say that makes me laugh. I was right about going out with you. I'll never regret being with you. Being with you makes me feel complete. I feel so attached to you. I know sometimes its bad.I want to do everything with you. Doing things with you makes everything better. You're my better half. I wish you knew about this blogspot but too bad haha.

I'll try my best to not hurt you and I'll try my best to make you happy. I might not be the best guy out there but I'll guarantee you that I'll try to be the best. My best may not be good enough but at least I'll try. I'll guarantee you that you'll be safe on my side. Ill fuck anyone up who fucks with you. I'll make sure that you're fine.

GMJV11408559

unappreciated

2008-11-23T09:56:00.000-08:00

Am I not good enough? I just really feel unappreciated. I feel like everything that I do is not good enough and it's like everytime I won't do the things you tell me to do, you just bitch at me and get mad. I'm not your pet. I try to do things to make you happy. Isn't that good enough? I try to visit you as much as I could but you don't see the effort I put to see you. It's like I'm building a house for no one. A house that will never become a home. A place that'll never be happy. This relationship is going nowhere because of you. You trip over small things. You always want to get what you want. You don't own me. I won't do everything that you tell me to do. I don't deserve this kind of treatment. I've defended you against my friends. Sometimes I just really dont know what to do no more. I think you need someone who's always gonna do everything you want and a guy that could be your bitch. You think the world rotates around you. 1 time that I said no to something you want me to do, you get mad? What kind of shit is that? Why can you not understand that I am really lazy and I was tired at the same time. It's not like I didn't wanna see you, I was tired.

I have to do what's best for me but the problem is, I don't know what's best for me. Maybe I don't want the best for me. I want wha'ts best for both of US. I don't wanna hurt you and I dont wanna hurt myself either. I'm sure that when I make a decision, I won't regret it.

mixed feelings

2008-11-22T22:06:00.000-08:00

Have you ever been in a situation when you don't know what to do?A situation where someone could get hurt? Lately, I've been feeling that my girlfriend don't even care for me or even like me. Our relationship is like whatever to her and she doesn't even care. I know I don't deserve this kind of treatment but I'm still putting up with it and I don't know why. There are times that I just wanna break it off but there's always something pulling me back. Maybe its because I really really like her. I know I could be better off with someone else out there. I deserve someone better and I know that. I hate it when my girlfriend trips off of the smallest shit ever. She gets mad for something that's not even that serious. I just wonder how much more pain she'll cause to me if we do keep on going out. By far,she's the worst girlfriend I've ever had. I knew that I should have never went out with her and just stayed being friends with her. This is 1 of the worst decisions I ever did in my whole life. I never had a girlfriend that would say "I don't care anymore". Man fk my life. As much as I want to stay with her, I don't think I could. I like her and all but I deserve better. I hate people that are stubborn,hardheaded and ignorant.